Oh Im starting this year off so fucking great. Its 3 weeks I didnt talk to my mom and i trip to the hosp. Way to go Tammy. Yes im drinking again. I cant help it , I need it.I feel so lost in this big world. I know I will be mad at myself for drinking. But I cant help it. Life gets the best of me. Well if its gone to kill me. I dont want to feel a thing. drinking makes things so easy. This drinks for you dear sweet mom.